Excruciating Agony: My Fight With the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast Monday morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp pain sprang behind my right eye. It was followed by rapid jolts, like lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort subsided and then returned with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks returned repeatedly that fall, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often start with intense pain around a single eye that persists for several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches typically begin with abrupt, excruciating pain focused on one eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate found 64% of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the number fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, like several causes, made things more intense. After having sherry at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as drunken episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Still, the failure to organize life around erratic pain took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical records suggest unusual remedies for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a separate disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by international medical committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key artery which delivers blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack passed.

National guidance on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known people.

But consultant specialists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the bout dictates the approach.” Short bouts with occasional episodes are managed with abortive treatment alone. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Adam Bradley
Adam Bradley

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